so much for new year resolutions.....
well..... anyway, i'm working another three day shift. each day that passes at work.... the more and more i become comfortable that i am in the right profession... well... at least i think so. to be honest, the winter season brings in a lot of sick people. like i mentioned before, there are codes that happen at least 2 or three times a week that i have observed. anyway, today i had a patient who was a DNR (do not resuscitate) and it's ironic how a person who spends a mere 12 hours or less with a family can, at the end of the night, end up hugging them and keeping them in my prayers. I've dealt with dying patients in the past already. within the 6 months that i've worked here, already 4 patients of mine unfortunately and/or fortunately have passed. it is unfortunate.... b/c there is a loss of a life... but depending on the situation.... it is better off that way.... no more suffering. at my hospital, there is a palliative care doctor who is actually known as dr. death b/c he provides comfort care for the patients who are expected to pass. he deals with the family's concern and focuses on making the passing less painful and more comfortable. he helped me with one of my patients two weeks ago.... i spent one shift in that room and i spent the ride home that night... crying. of course i kept my composure in front of the family, but after i left work, it all hit me... life is very fragile......
i'm sorry for my confusing blog.. i just needed to vent.....

Ahhh... another year has gone and passed... yay!!!! HAPPY 2006!!!!! ok-ok... to keep up with my new years resolution tradition..... "I shall blog more often!" I remember saying this to myself about two years ago... but the tradition shall go on. I was talking with Jason the other day and he suggested that I at least blog one word a day... so... that'll start today... i hope.
Anyway, the fog is coming in once again.. the Tule Fog ---they call it, b/c it's tulare county. it's already mid morning and the fot is still hanging around. it's not too bad though, i only drive about 3 miles to work in the mornings..speaking of driving... i gotta get a new car.. woe is me. You'd think that I'd be excited about it, but i'm actually bummed b/c that means more bills. my little car "Roonie" (b/c he's maroon) couldn't make it passed valencia last weekend.. or after new years weekend. apparently in the last 3 months, my car broke down twice already, and this last problem is going to be a doozie, the transmission. so i figure, i might as well get a new car for the new year, and a new peace of mind. it's not very fun thinking your car will break down on you in the middle of the freeway. anyhoo, i'm working more nowadays. it's getting better. although during the last month, there'd be days were 2-3 code blues were called... and I'd just stand there. luckily they weren't my own patients, but there were a lot of false alarms on the patients that i'd care for. i really don't know what to do in those situations. there's a whole bunch of people who run in the room and do their own little parts, so i figure i might as well stay out of the way... but it's still so scarey.... soooo i was thinking, maybe i should work in the prisons... they get paid almost double as much as i and it's not as critical... i know i'd have to deal with verbal abuse and sexual harrassment.. but i'll research on it..... just kidding--- brian told me of a few stories about prisons... so i'm not too eager to research it. it was just a thought.
anyway, i'm gonna sign off now.... my hair is still wet and it'll take me the usual 2 hours to dry and beautify my hair.... gotta run some errands: costco here i come! take care all and have a happy new year!