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Monday, March 31, 2003

"Comfort the disturbed... and disturb the comfortable."
"go find your papa, Paco!"

Well.. I brought my daddy to Interfaith today.. for 6:30 mass. We were originally supposed to go to St. Paul at Chino HIlls, but we were really late b/c we went to a family party and we stayed longer than we expected. So.... I really really wanted to go to mass today... and I suggested we go to interfaith. Luckily, we made it to Irvine within 30 minutes.... I should be a race car driver.. I was going about... 80-85 mph! but my dad didn't mind b/c everybody else was going as fast as I was... "I was just following the speed of traffic" heheheheheheh.. Anyway, we got to mass on time and I think no matter how open hearted and minded... I want to be with my family... just today I realized how far away from my goal I really am... I mean... I'm not really giving my family bondage (bondage in a good way). Well.. maybe it's b/c i'm not home very often... and when I am.. no one is home with me... Anyways... during the Our Father, my dad raised our hands up high... higher than our heads... which I found to be a little odd b/c my other hand that was holding the person next to me was lower than my shoulder. But then I realized how awesome my dad is .. and how at that moment the Holy Spirit was lifting us up as father and daughter. I dunno.. maybe it's just me... but my dad doesn't really do that often. so then I thought.. maybe the homiy really got to my dad... regarding how we can find the beautiful in not so beautiful times. .... Not very often do I invite my parents into MY world. if that makes any sense. I guess it's b/c they were always so busy that whenever I asked, they couldn't go. so to a certain point, I just stopped asking them. So now.. I'm trying to bring them back... and it's a little weird, but I know I'll get used to it. But i know one thing fo sure... I can't wait until they come into my world.. and hopefully I will be able to maintain balance between my life with friends, school, work,....and now my family.