So time is slowly slipping away.... I just can't wait until this Bar is over.... no me gusta. But I guess on a good note.. I'm slowly accomplishing my summer goals. Well, kinda. I finished the book that i started two years ago. And now I think I'm going to study my dosage calculations. After that I think I'm going to continue with the NCLEX practice questions.. but we'll see. --how sad. but it's ok..... I got plenty of time, it's just a matter of how i utilize it I guess... I used to tell myself that all the time in high school when i tried to console myself before I felt overwhelmed with work... let's see if my self-talk will work this time around.
Anyway, my Canadian family called me the other day. They are new parents to another foster daughter. It was really surprising to receive a call from them. It's funny b/c I was looking at some old pictures the other day and I came across some Canada pictures with my host family from world youth day. what a coincidence, eh?
Well, my weekend passed me by once again. I spent the weekend reading my book while Brian took his practice tests and read his outlines. Fun stuff I tell ya. Anyway, I actually get a lot done when he's forced to study... that may sound kinda weird but it makes me use the time to be productive. I don't like it when I sit on my bum the whole day in front of a tv... well, I don't mind it sometimes.. but I'd prefer to be productive. Well, I'm proud to say that his practice test scores are increasing! I'm proud b/c he's improving everyday, and also it reassures me that I'm not such a distraction as I thought I'd be.
Anyway, I'm really bummed about this upcoming semester. I kinda wish the program was year round so that I would then be 75% done by now.. but nope.... one more year. that reminds me.. I still gotta organize my old papers... hmm.. maybe this week, hopefully.
Well, I'm looking forward to hanging out with Reg this Wednesday. yeah, she was able to fit me into her busy schedule... lucky me! I'd like for all the girls to come together again to hang out... at least once a month or something. It's sad that nowadays, in order to hang out with friends, schedules need to be made and appointments.... growing up isn't as fun as I thought it'd be. For the past few days, I was contemplating with a high school buddy... and we decided that the years of 20-30 is the most difficult years ... more so than teen years b/c in 20-30, you have to still work on "finding yourself" and also work on making a stable future. You have to focus on your career, your love life, your family, your goals.... and bills, moola, expenses.... goodness gracious!
Anyway, I went to church with Brian this past Sunday in St.Pius... it was different... I mean, the atmosphere... nothing compares to Interfaith... but I know that faith is not about entertainment nor church buildings or choir techniques... but the thoughts that were running through my head during mass... kinda distracted me. I didn't like it... and to be honest, i don't know what exact thoughts bothered me.. maybe it's feelings and not thoughts... I don't know... but I guess I just miss being engulfed in that atmosphere... that atmosphere that I can't really describe but know and feel exactly what it is I'm thinking of... (sorry I'm not making sense.... but do my blogs ever make sense... uh.... dunno) anyhoooo... gotta go to bed, gotta wake up at five to get to work on time... Oh please let me wake up and be motivated enough to go to work. I think I've mentioned this before... I always dread going to work, but when I'm there, I'm so grateful that I went. It's just the horrible drive in an airconditionless car... and the possibility of traffic.... I'm sorry.... I vent about this way too much.... this shouldn't even be an issue, it's a priviledge really... so I gotta treat it like it is. so there! I'm done. thanks.
